Spirituality is defined as the quality of being concerned with the human spirit or soul as opposed to material or physical things. Using this definition, I would have to say it is very important to my life. I’m concerned with my everlasting salvation that comes through Christ.
I’m going to use these prompts as some a somewhat personal journal to document my grieving process as my dad has been given a very grim prognosis.
I’d classify myself as being an emotional person. I’m highly sensitive and highly intune with the world around me. I don’t have to know someone personally to feel their emotions. I cry at everything and easily get my feelings hurt. My dad has been my rock and the rock of our family for a very long time. He has been fighting Congestive Heart Failure for over 5 years now. Recently it has begun to look as if he will lose this fight very soon.
I’ve cried and prayed. I’ve been angry with God. I don’t understand how someone who has been such an amazing and supportive Father can suffer like this. I never thought that my prayer would be for him to no longer suffer and leave this world quickly.
The first day I came to see him in the hospital I stayed the night with him. After all our family left I broke down and cried to him. I told him how angry I was that he was in this position and that I wish I could take the pain away. He’s always been the person I could cry to and he’s always comforted me. This time I didn’t get a response. We just held hands and I knew at that point that I needed to let him go.
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