New Mom Chronicles

Episode One: Back to Work

I’ve never known a love so beautiful and fulfilling. As my little girl continues to grow I feel like my love for her grows. I constantly joke with my mom saying, “Is this how you feel when you see me?” I’m sure you never stop loving your children, but I do believe the love you feel for them probably changes over the years. I pray that it just continues to grow.

This is love!

Everyone keeps telling me to enjoy my time with my little one because they grow up so fast. I’m already starting to feel like that is so true even though baby girl is only 10 weeks. Some days I want to stop time so I can soak up every moment with my sweet baby Scarlett. She has already started to scoot around on her back and stomach and even tries to roll over. She’s outgrown her clothes and is wearing 6 month outfits. I want time to stop or slow down so I can soak up every moment with her. I just pray I get to be there for as many of these changes as I can.

Each day my little princess seems to do something new that amazes me. She’s perfect in every way and I feel like she’s growing up so fast. That’s probably why I feel so guilty when I have to leave her to go to work. As she grows and learns more I hope that she knows how much I love her and that I would sacrifice anything for her. I thank my Heavenly Father for her daily.

Sweet Baby Scarlett

The guilt I’ve felt daily having to leave Scarlett is something I’ve never felt. I never thought that motherhood would come with so much guilt. Right now I’m more fatigue than I’ve ever been in my life and I’m an emotional wreck. This morning I had to fight back tears of sheer exhaustion and guilt. I didn’t want to come into work; I wanted to sleep and most importantly I wanted to be with my baby girl. I’m on my fourth day of having to be away from her for ten hours and it doesn’t seem to be getting any easier. I’m sure much of the emotions I feel have to do with the sheer exhaustion I feel, but I’m doing my best to push through.

Scarlett Olivia (4 weeks)

Patience. That’s my word for the rest of the month. I just have to remember to have patience with this new journey. My family has grown and there are going to be some growing pains. I just have to start each day with a positive outlook, seeing as Scarlett is a morning baby and is always smiling at me that’s not hard. I make sure I love on her and bond with her as much as I can when I’m with her.

XOXO

Pregnancy Update

First Trimester

Monday’s are the hardest. Sometimes I feel like I’m battling depression, other days I feel like it’s the baby just getting the best of me. It’s really rough for me because I was expecting this to be a great experience. I’ve had migraines for the past seven or more years that I thought were related to my menstrual cycle. Now I’m not having my cycle but I still have the migraines, if anything they are more frequent. I really hate it because I’m always sick, I feel like no matter what I do nothing changes. There is no relief from these migraines. The worst thing about it is it seems like no one cares, nothing stops because I’m not feeling well. I just have to put on my big girl pants and suck it up. I’ve had to start journaling to keep my mind off how miserable I am. My brother asked me why I’m always sick the other day, and even my man has commented on me always being sick. It’s honestly one of the hardest things I’ve had to deal with in my life and I’m miserable I’m thinking about going to counseling.

Second Trimester

Now that I’m late in my second trimester I feel so much better. I’m ALIVE! I no longer am experiencing migranes and the constant need to vomit has passed. I no longer feel sick or want to slap every person around me that is having a good day. I didn’t end up going to counseling, but I do think the journaling really helped me. I’d say that journaling has been my saving grace, as well as reading other mommy blogs. I truly believe that I was depressed early in my pregnancy because of a lot of things, but mainly being away from my man, being sick, worrying about money, and taking time off work when I just started my job. One thing I’ve had to constantly tell myself is that everything is going to be okay. I have a lot of support from my man and our families. One thing I will say is don’t take those feelings of depression lightly. There is a stigma with the word depression, but don’t be afraid to admit that something is wrong and please don’t be afraid to seek help. We all fight our own demons and deal with some form of depression in our lives. You’d be amazed at the amount of people who can relate to what you are going through, and the amount of resources and peoople that are out there to help.

Third Trimester

Right about now I’m really beginning to feel pregnant and experience some of the symptoms that go along with pregnancy. I only have about a month and a half to go and I’m feeling it. I took a weekend trip to the beach and did a lot of walking and not enough drinking and it caused my hands and feet to swell. My hands were tingling and so swollen that it hurt to hold a pen. I couldn’t feel my feet and literally felt like I was walking on ankles. To reduce the swelling I put my feet up and made sure I relaxed and drank a lot of water. Thankfully I haven’t had that problem again. In the grand scheme of things I’m doing really well. Other than being in a constant state of anxiety. I’m just having doubts about my capabilities as a mother, the birthing process, and I’m worrying about taking time off work, money, being able to spend time with my baby, breastfeeding, putting my baby in daycare, and my man having enough time to spend with us.

We currently have 27 days to go and I couldn’t be more thrilled. I can’t wait to see her beautiful face and see how proud her dad is. I’m nervous and absolutely terrified about the birthing process, but I thank God for the support system I have. Thankfully I haven’t had too many issues and the feet swelling is a rare occurrence and for the most part I feel pretty good. I have gotten to the point where some of her movements literally hurt and I just rub on her and talk to her and that helps, but I’m ready for baby girl to get evicted. The most painful, well more so annoying thing is the pressure I feel under my breast. I’m guessing I feel some part of her applying pressure there and it makes me out of breath and makes me not want to wear a bra, which unfortunately is not an option. All in all though baby girl and I are healthy and happy!

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Review: Jouer’s Long Wear Lip Products

Jouer Long Wear Lip Creme

According to Jouer’s website the Long Wear Lip Creme claims to be , “A weightless lipstick that offers full-coverage color with a soft-touch finish that glides on smoothly and lasts all day. This buildable and ultra-lightweight lipstick offers a beautiful matte or metallic finish in a wide range of warm and cool shades. Transform your lipstick look from daytime to night with a swipe of a wand. The formula features vitamin E to ensure that your lips remain conditioned no matter how many times you switch colors.”

Prior to purchasing the Lip Creme I read some of the reviews online. Overall, this product had a good rating (4+ Stars). I would have to agree with that rating, personally I’d give the product 4 stars. The only claim from the website that I would disagree with is that the vitamin E helps lips remain conditioned. It’s winter time and unfortunately my lips are extremely chapped, so I have to keep them moisturized and exfoliated. When I applied some of the Lip Creme’s they felt drier than I’d like. The main culprits were the shades Rose Gold and Monaco. I have to say that not all the shades were drying. Watermelon and the other red shades (Fraise Bonbon & Brique) felt amazing on my lips. Another thing that I didn’t like about this product is how many of the shades accentuate the lip lines. I never realized how many lines were on my lips until I applied this product. Not all the shades have this problem, but accentuated lip lines is not a look I want to go for.

One of the things I love about this product is how it applies. One swipe and I have full coverage. One thing I would recommend is not pressing your lips together. Some of the colors can handle it and others it just sheers them out. Jouer should get a pat on the back for the shade range as well. They have some beautiful nudes that work for every shade: Creme Brûlée (a warm nude or muted brown), Noisette (brown nude or chocolate brown), Petale de Rose (cool deep rose or pinky nude), and Dulce de Leche (cool nude or pinky nude that is similar to Petale de Rose). I used either a mauve or dark brown liner with these shades, although I only think it’s necessary for my skin tone with the pink or rose shades.

The only shade I purchased that I wasn’t too impressed with was Melon. It was a little too pink in my opinion for my skin tone and is definitely out of my comfort zone. It also applied a little funny on my lips so I had to use a moisturizer (coconut oil) to get it to work. I was swatching all of these colors back to back so that may have something to do with it, but this was only maybe the third or fourth shade and it just was not working for me. Overall, I am definitely impressed with the longevity of this product, the scent, application, and color range.

Jouer Lip Toppers & Lip Glosses

I would have to give the Lip Toppers and the Lip Glosses five stars easily. I absolutely love the scent of the Lip Toppers I have (Sweetheart and Sweettooth). They smell like fresh baked cupcakes. They have a somewhat vanilla scent but it’s not over powering or nauseating.

The Lip Gloss range offers something for every girl like myself that is obsessed with lip gloss. They have a high pigment gloss (14 shades), a high pigment pearl gloss (8 shades), and a sheer gloss (6 shades). I personally love a good glossy and moisturize lip. Sometimes I want color and sometimes I just want sheer coverage depending on what I’m doing and where I’m going. I have tried the High Pigment Lip Gloss in the shade Broadway which is a brown high pigment gloss that I love, and I’ve tried the sheer pigment lip gloss in the shade Monaco which I also love (my lips are lined in the picture below).

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